I am trying very hard to embrace the outdoors that I am in. I know that living in the rural away from the city hum is a blessing. So why is it that I have to remind myself of this everyday? People say to me all the time that they wish they had what we have here. I know it's true, I know it's an enviable environment. Don't get me wrong, I do love much of what we have out here, I'm just not the kind of gal who gets excited about nature. I love looking at it all. I love knowing that there is nothing major around for miles. Oh and did I mention that there is nothing major around for miles??? Yikes, that's the hard part. Crave a coffee date with a friend?...well schedule it in for the next trip to town cause just going somehow seems bigger than it should. In all fairness it's only about 25 min from town but that still manages to seem to most as if it's a day trip...oh that drives me crazy. Then I am perceived to be unreasonable...hey what's the deal. I'm the one who has to do this all the time, why am I being the unreasonable one here? I don't get it..
OK, admittedly venting here...
No real need to.
So...I will be thankful that when I go outside and cry, no one is going to drive by and laugh at me...thats good..I know it's good. Well at least until I am past the stage in my life where I actually don't need to go outside and cry....
Ok, ok, I like it, twisted my emotional arm...it's good and I am thankful. To be honest even though I grip, I don't think I would rather be anywhere else right now.
Funny, the Lord seems to have it all under control..even when I want to protest fruitlessly...
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